A gem, a gift

I have officially completed my first week as a student teacher. I need a nap!! =)

The first day brought with it many emotions. The teacher that I am working alongside is wonderful, experienced and full of wisdom. She looped this year, moving from first to second, and has all but three of the same students that she had last year. That being said, the children know her, love her and know her expectations. They love her so much and I can see why. As a new teacher, stepping into a classroom that has already been established is intimidating. I was struggling the first day with whether or not I would be able to find my place within this classroom.

It was silly to think this knowing what I know already: God provides and he's got this. Nevertheless, I was still surrounded with these self-defeating feelings. On the first day, we began lining up to head outside for our first recess, and I decided to "bring up the rear" and follow the back of the line. At the back of the line, my eyes met with a sweet child and her kind eyes. She asked me if I was going to go outside with her. I told her yes and she showed excitement in my response. Bless her sweet heart. After a few steps down the hall, and as my feelings of being unfit continued to surround me, I felt this sweet child's hand slip into mine. I glanced down at this beautiful gift from God, who seemed to appear so brightly, at the exact moment I needed her. I smiled at her and held her hand tightly. I whispered to her asking her what her name was (I was still trying to learn and remember 21 new faces and it was still morning on the first day), she said, "Rubi". I thought to myself, "Rubi. A gem. You have no idea what you just did."

After this moment, something deep inside of me changed. I felt like I could be a part of this class. The self-defeating feelings seem to diminish. I was ready to fall in love with each of these beautiful hearts that God has given me for 14 weeks. The week continued on and I had a blast watching my students (wow, feels good to say that) learn and grow in excitement for this coming school year. I enjoyed getting to know my students, but most of all I enjoyed laughing and connecting with them. Such beautiful little people with bright futures ahead of them.

I'm feeling the weight of all that it means to be a teacher, but I'm trying my best not to feel too overwhelmed or stressed. I have a great support system that I must not take for granted. I am too blessed to be stressed. Coffee will be my best friend for these next weeks of growing and stretching myself to become the best that I can. Keep me in your prayers, as I know the power of prayer is great.

I will keep updating from time to time. Thank you for reading and be blessed.